And the day after my last post I was dealing with another sick child and got very little sleep. But I felt better. It's like I opened the windows on a spring day and the breeze blew out all the stale air. Now, I still didn't get my shower til two in the afternoon, but I at least was getting things done in my jammies.
The next day oh persistent but hit me, but not very hard. I still taught school. Started on the weekly seven loads of laundry after working on the "kids have been sick" laundry. Yesterday, I even had a chance to run errands by myself in gorgeous eighty degree afternoon.
And I have to say, it feels good to feel good.
Then I wonder, would it feel so good to feel good if I didn't know what it was to feel bad? Not that I ever want to go back there, although given past history, chances are good I will. But would I appreciate the good days as much if the bad never came? I don't think I would. And each time I have a chance to practice what I say I believe: it's important that we continue to do the right thing even when we don't feel like it. I usually don't do great in this area. Hey, I don't even always do what there is to be done when I feel good. But each moment of each day is an opportunity for me to grow.
I am not a consistent person. I work more in spurts. This past week I worked on speaker invitations for the Abundant Life Conference for Women, coping with sickness, and getting ready for two birthday parties. Next week will be something else. Maybe getting back to my fiction work. But, the important thing is to stay focused in the right direction: up. And keep on keeping on. There is a purpose, not only for each of our lives, but for every breath that we have.
I wish I could remember that every day, much less every moment.
Making the right choices on a regular basis will help. And the first right choice is "renewing my mind daily." I got a wonderful reminder of this this morning by my sister, who posted this on facebook:
To Be Mature
1-3In light of all this, here's what I want you to do. While I'm locked up here, a prisoner for the Master, I want you to get out there and walk—better yet, run!—on the road God called you to travel. I don't want any of you sitting around on your hands. I don't want anyone strolling off, down some path that goes nowhere. And mark that you do this with humility and discipline—not in fits and starts, but steadily, pouring yourselves out for each other in acts of love, alert at noticing differences and quick at mending fences.
4-6You were all called to travel on the same road and in the same direction, so stay together, both outwardly and inwardly. You have one Master, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who rules over all, works through all, and is present in all. Everything you are and think and do is permeated with Oneness.
There's no problem in letting all my emotions out, as a matter of fact, it's very healing when done in a healthy way. But then I have to get the focus off myself (contrary to what most of society tells us) and get it back on God and others needs. There are so many people out there who are also hurting, and if I can use the pain I've felt to come along side someone and help them get to the other side, back to where feeling good feels so good, then I have one more thing to be thankful for.